| | no matter how many times i tell the story, i get the same response.
"oh my gosh, thats awful. you're being had"
"well he sounds like a winner" </sarcasm>
"and you ...want to be treated this way?"
the truth is, im not, and he is, and i do. alex is the sweetest thing that has happened to me. and keeps happening. our hours together have been short, but our time together goes on much longer. everytime i talk to him, i feel butterflies. every time he says "i love you" i know that he means it. and i mean it too when i say it. im different, to him. im not from kentucky and im not just another girl. i care about him and he cares about me and we both know this. and whats more, we both appreciate it. immensely. i only wish that we werent 800 miles apart and that we could actually *be* together. and this is when my audience gets skeptical. because he has a temporary girlfriend. and we're both in college and experimenting and experiencing life. and we're broke and cant afford the three-hundred dollar plane tickets. the last time i saw him (january 2005) was amazing. we were how we should be. together. and in love. and happy. its just that for now, things are less-than-perfect. and until we graduate and we're able to be together, things are going to stay like this. and i dont know how i feel about that. im patient. and im loyal. and im understanding. but i am also gullible. and everytime i hear the response
"you're being had" i have to wonder how true it may possibly be. and then i feel like a fool and a sucker and a stupid idiot. but then he calls and tells me that he loves me. and i feel better. who cares what they say. i'll wait. ive got the rest of my life to spend with him. how much do the next few months matter, really?
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